What is wrong wi th me???!!!!

I am sitting at the computer desk looking at a house that is getting more an more disgusting knowing the kids are running low on clothes and wash needs to been done, cleaning the kitchen , and the rest of the house needs to be done, and for whatever reason, I don't do it. There is no good excuse ,really. I know it. Greg knows it. We all know it. Yes I was not taught to clean as I go or even clean at all, really. That may have been an excuse 5-10 years ago but what i the excuse now? Nothing other than laziness. I want a pretty , neat, organized, clean as a whistle house. I want to be a better mom and wife. I say I have no motivation, but I do . Look at those beautiful two little faces. It is unfair to treat them like this and make them live with me the way I am right now. I have to do better for them. For Greg and for our marriage. I am going to clean now, don't want to but I got too.