Thinking about my mom a lot. Don't know why . Maybe it's all the Gosselin crap. yes when I started a second blog I said no mention of them here but its not what I mean. Kate is domineering awful wench and rumored to be physically abusive and we all know how bad things were with my mom. Kate reminds me a lot of her. She has her hand out to the world expecting free stuff. Just like my mom. She's abusive and mean , hmm again just like my mom. And I am turning into them both. I never clean( well that's actually getting a lot better but lets move on) , I can ignore my kids when I am not in the mood. I don't mean in the way of not feeding or something of that nature , but when I am busy or not in a big mommy mood, I can hear myself say go away, go play, just like my mom just like Kate. I am working on my faults which is something neither one of them can admit they have. I still wonder have I done as much damage to Kaitlyn and Brayden as mommy did to us or as time will tell Kate has done to her babies? Don't know. I just need to work to be better. Need to do dishes and laundry, already better then my mother.