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Crap! Crap! Crap!

Okay so now the damn dryer is broken, and I am out of flipping clean undies! And even better we are flat fu*King broke so we have to borrow the money from his mom.Are you freaking kidding me?! Why can't this stuff ever and I mean ever happen when we have money? Because we never have money. I am sick of being flat ass broke. I am sick off never having money. Sick , sick , sick , sick of it all. Greg workd\s so hard. He really does. But our bank account never shows it. It is a lot my fault. I know that. I spend to much money on everything. So now I have clothes drying on hangers all over the place. At least I will have clean panties , hopefully they will be dry!

THANKSGIVING

Thanksgiving is a very special holiday to me. Has been for as long as I can remember. I know why. We grew up poor so poor that we didn't get a lot of presents a lot of anything, but always had a traditional dinner . Or came close. But on Thanksgiving we never had to worry about presents so we had food and plenty of it. probably the only day of the year that it was like that. So Thanksgiving means A LOT.
Before I get into this story let me just remind you that I am a control freak when it comes to my kitchen and my food in my house. I like it MY WAY and to me there is no other way. All day Wednesday, I cooked when I had energy. For a few reasons,but mostly because every year I get yelled at for not spending time with the family and spending the day cooking. Well isn't that what the day is about? Well that is how I see it but my family ( well technically Greg's but I am married to him so they are stuck with me) thinks we should spend time together. We don't when we are at his parents house. His mom is in the kitchen all day. Plus they get mad when I don't ask for help. I don't for a couple of reasons. If I am actually asking for help, I need it now not 20 minutes from now when this quarter , this series is over. It is only football and not teams we watch any other day of the year so who the hell cares? The other reason I don't ask for help because I like things done my way. Not your way. Greg's parents use only skim milk even on the holidays. EEEWWWW gross! The use margarine instead of butter. The do not use salt. Yuck. They eat healthy and that is fine the rest of the year but in Thanksgiving? Christmas I think not! They came up early Thursday . When they got here every single side dish and dessert was done except the mashed potatoes, and the turkey. The stuffed mushrooms had to cook but that was it. They got mad when I did not have a veggie plate to put out for snacks. My kids won't eat that, I don't so why waste the money? I wasn't moving fast enough for them. Whatever. Crackers and a cheese ball, chex mix, weenies and stuffed mushrooms oh I forgot deviled eggs. That was all ready when they got here and put out but apparently not fast enough for them. GGGGRRRRRR. The rest of the day went okay while the turkey was cooking really without incident . While every thing else the stuffing and casseroles and all that stuff were cooking and the turkey was done, I got dizzy felt like I was gonna pass out. I had to let my mother and father in law finish the dinner. Something that killed me and ate me up inside. That is how sick I am . Anyone who knows how much I love to cook and how I am about my kitchen knows what this did to me and how sick I am. Oh and a side note. his mothers gravy was horrible worst gravy ever on the planet. She used milk?! I n Thanksgiving gravy never heard of it and won't ever use it like that because it was gross. I mean gluey , gloppy , yucky eeeeeeeeeeewwwwwww just thinking about it! Dinner went great. Then Brayden found the Wii remote, while Greg was putting up the food. Greg's dad told me to t take it away. !. He is my kid I will take it away if I want. 2. It can't harm it, so let him go easier then fighting him the way I feel. Anyway when I told dad he can't hurt it and it is easier just to let it go the way I feel. He very nastily said " Well who's the damn parent around her.?!" I know the look of shook on my face, must have been bad like my face was gonna melt off but it gets even better. He then said " That is not the first time you have said just let it go and that's not being a parent and its why everything here is such a mess." The man is very lucky I am sick and I didn't have a knife otherwise he would be no more. I am not kidding I would have lost my mind and killed him And folks I am from Brooklyn , I know how to hide a body. Okay enough rambling. I am getting off my soap box now , but think I will post more about Greg's dad tomorrow. It helps me fell better.

Still sick

Okay so I have been sick for almost 2 weeks. Don't have a clue whats wrong bad cough till today now my nose has started running. Yeah fun, just in time for Kaitlyn's last football game tomorrow. I am so tired of being sick. I have so much to do and can't get any of it done because I am coughing so hard or my neck. Oh did I forget to mention my neck. Sore as all get out from cough . Can' t turn all the way right or left now. Fun times , Fun times! So sick Greg's mom and dad finished Thanksgiving. But I will talk about that in another post!

The Gators!

Poor Greg is not only catching whatever the heck I have had for the last two weeks, but his precious Gators lost the SEC title tonight to Bama! UGH! He feels so crappy he didn't even get upset. Now not many of you have had the ummm.. pleasure, no that's not it the wonders no that's wrong to the discomfort of sitting watching the Gators play with Greg. He gets awful, horrible, mean, horrendous just all around monkey ass like when the Gators are not playing well to say the least. It can be scary. I am not kidding. My hubby has displace anger issues anyway ( sometimes) but never as bad and scary as during the Gators! I am telling you an alien takes over that man's body and brings me something that will give you nightmares. Throwing things screaming cussing, it is terrible. The kids get scared, the fur balls run away and hid where ever they can fit ( let's face it onyx fat ass can't fit anyway but out in the open { poor thing}). I watch the game in the bedroom not to deal with him. But tonight. Nothing. Nada. Zilch. I was getting worried about him . Then I took a look at him he looked pitiful, to say the least. WE love our Gators in this house. WE start training them right at an early age. But my goodness tonight was different . Interesting to watch , it with him like he was. We bleed orange and blue in this house and I just want to say we still love our Gators and are proud to say we are fans! Tebow is better then anyone else out there and for all you Bama fans making fun of Tebow crying, doesn't that show you what this means to the boy? How much this game , all games in his senior year mean to him? He is a fantastic kid who does more for this world in one day then most of you will do in a lifetime. LEAVE. HIM. ALONE.!!!!!!! He is broken hearted. You would be too. So shut up! Oh and GO GATORS FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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What brings me joy?

That is a very simple question to answer. Gregory ( Greg) my wonderful hubby who works harder than any man should have to to pay those bills, put food on the table, a roof over our heads and smiles through most of it. He is a wonderful, kind man. No matter how much we are struggling he is my support ( most of the time anyway) and for that I am thankful. My beautiful daughter Kaitlyn brings me more joy than I ever thought possible. Thankful for her goofy, smart, a active beautiful little behind.
she is 5 and a giant pain in the behind right now but I love her more then words can ever say. Brayden my baby well, not really a baby anymore so I will say my youngest brings me so much joy too. He is kind, sweet smarter then your average bear, respectful, curious, just the best all around 2 year old you ever want to meet. My family life growing up sucked. Those of you who know me know that, so to have this much joy from my hubby and kids shows how much I have grown. I am so happy and joyous to have them in my life that no words none can ever truly express it. Now the idea to write this post was because I am entering a contest/giveaway on another blog barking mad but it is something I meant to do last week for Thanksgiving and with this deadly cold/ bronchitis/ killer disease ( lol) I have right now didn't get the chance.


The link to the giveaway

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Jenna'sJourney Giveaway!

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Thanksgiving Weekend

Thanksgiving was, interesting. To say the least . Mom and dad got here about 930 in the morning from Jacksonville, Florida. We live in Oxford, Alabama. How flipping early did they leave ? 3 am. . 3 am . I didn't even get up that ear to make the turkey. Oh yeah that's because they had the turkey. Mom had called me about 10 days prior and asked if she could bring the turkey. I said yes because well we are broke and every little bit helps. But anyway they get here like 2 hours earlier then expected and the house was a mess Well it is always a mess but more so this week. I am sick . I think it is bronchitis, not really sure self medicating. But I have been sick for a week at least or my whole life depending on who you ask. Greg and I keep cleaning with snide remarks from his dad and mom playing with kids. Dad says couldn't you have picked a better paint color? It took me 5 years to get the house painted and it only got done because I did it myself and stopped waiting on Greg. He didn't even know what color was going up till it happened or that we were painting the house for that matter. Which I think was his plan so I would do all the work. They are hungry when they get here and looking for snacks, really? Seriously? I am sick and I haven't even had breakfast or tea or anything and you want food? Here's some Chex mix go away. Well not really had bunches of munchies but still too early to be messing with me and my paint color. Especially since I stayed up late the night before cooking everything but the turkey. Get turkey in oven after it comes up to room temperature because it was on ice for 7 hours. They say why? I say because. I knew it was gonna be a long weekend. Turkey in oven feed hungry people shower. Front door opens. Baby brother is here. Well I am naked he can wait. Get dressed he is playing with kiddos. Kaitlyn just loves him and has a grand old time so cool. I get half way through heating all the casseroles and things up and I hit the wall . I am done. I mean I thought I was going to pass out. So I the queen of control freaks( when it comes to my kitchen) walked away and had mom finish everything. I felt that bad. We eat have some dessert they go back to hotel. I go to bed leaving hubby and brother asleep on different couches.
They next day we went to an Iron Bowl party. For of you not from Alabama the Iron Bowl is Auburn Tigers Football against The Alabama Tide. Close game but the Tide won. Greg and my brother were drinking so now no Nacallulla Falls which is fine because I fell like donkey dew but not so much with the stuck up pain in the ass in laws

Today!

This morning we got up took Kaitlyn to school, went over to Krystina's and took her out to Aldi's. Not really sure if she liked it or not hope so, because it is out in Gadsden and it's a 45 or so minute drive. I know crazy for food shopping , right? We spent a little over $400, but all we will need for months is dairy and odd and ends you can't buy in advance like sandwhich meat and yada yada yada. Plus all that included most everything I need for Thursday. Thursday sweet Thursady. i am more excited about Thanksgiving this year then I have been in a Long, long time. Why you may ask? It might be because of the guest list. My handsome , wonderful amazing, greta fantastic, super, hubby Greg. First year in a number of years he will be home, and not working nights so YAY us! My fabulous, beautiful, sporty, amazing daughter Kaitlyn. My funny , kind , handsome, wonderful, exploring son Brayden. My father in law. My mother in law who is amazing. She raised Greg by herself for the most part because Greg's dad is Navy and he was at sea, and working all the time. She is the best mother I know and I am greatful everyday for her. Oh and to me the most important guest. My baby brother. I have not spent this holiday or any other since Thanksgiving of 1998. I left home shortly after and we have spent very limited time together ever since , all since handsome baby bot Brayden was born. He has had a really rough year. he was deployed to Iraq and came home and was served with divorce papers. Ity's final now but he still hasn't seen Charity and it ways on him. I have more to say on that subject but that is for another day. i will make him what ever he wants all weekend or however long he is here. I am truley blessed this year. i am so thankful for everything I have and need to start showing it more.

So here are the rules: you can only use ONE word to answer the questions. Then you must pass this along to your favorite bloggers. Alert them that you have given them this award and have fun!

1. Where is your cell phone? charging
2. Your hair? MESSY
3. Your mother? EVIL
4. Your father? LONGGONE
5. Your favorite food? Chocolate
6. Your dream last night? WIERD
7. Your favorite drink? CHERRY COKE
8. Your dream/goal? SAHM
9. Favorite TV Show?gHOSTWHISPER
10. Your hobby? NO TIME
11. Your fear? Death
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years?HERE BUT BETER
13. Where were you last night?HERE
14. Something that you aren’t?SKINNY
15. Muffins?YUMMY

16. Wish list item? CASH TO MAKE BILLS GO AWAY

17. Where did you grow up?nyc
18. Last thing you did?TYPED NYC
19. What are you wearing?FUZZY FEETY JAMMIES
20. Your TV? e! NEWS
21. Your pets?onyx; dog; now the cats gator, shadow,toes,spot dot, joker, cotton, firecracker , keys
22. Friends? not many but the ones i have are great.
23. Your life? Blessed
24. Your mood?wxzaspirated and tired and loopy
25. Missing someone? MY pookie
26. Vehiclle? trailblazer ext lt
27. Something you’re not wearing?a bra
28. Your favorite store? any one that has craft stuff
29. Your favorite color? pink
30. When was the last time you laughed? Today
31. Last time you cried? about an hour ago
32. Your best friend?Jacy
33. One place that I go to over and over? bathroom
34. One person who emails me regularly?dad
35. Favorite place to eat?whiteys fish camp

Florida Georgia Game

A man had tickets for the Georgia-Florida game.

As he sits down, a man comes down and asks if anyone is sitting in the
Seat next to him.

"No", he says, "The seat is empty."

"This is incredible," said the man. "Who in their right mind
would have a seat like this for the Georgia-Florida game, the
biggest sporting event in the world, and not use it?"

He said, "Well, actually, the seat belongs to me. I was supposed to come
with my wife, but she passed away. This is the first Georgia-Florida game
we haven't been to together since we got
married in 1957".

"Oh ... I'm sorry to hear that.. That's terrible. But
couldn't you find someone else - a friend or relative, or even a
neighbor to take
the seat?".


The man shakes his head. "No. They're all at the funeral."

STOP TAKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE people who always have their hands out expecting someone to come through and rescue them. I hate this for many reasons, but mostly because it is how I remember my mom. Always taking never giving. She was mad at church and God for how her life turned out and turned her back to God , her life and in doing so did the same to us.I believe strongly in God and that he will lead me in the right direction. As for what my brother and sister believe, I have no idea I have never asked them. And I am not going to. I won't because i realize more then most Baptists, how hurt full, how rude and commanding and pushy people can be. How when Christ is being shoved down your throat like most Baptist do if you are even a little unsure it makes you turn away. But that is not what I am talking about. We have friends who have been struggling about money for a few years now. ANd yes they are takling what is offered because they have no choice but they may not be able to give back money but time time they have and time they give. And that is because of their faith in him. Other friends who are struggling , just are using everyone for everylast drop they can get. Beleive me I get it I get it better then you or anyone else ever could, and I aslo know what your doing is doing to you in the eyes of the Lord and your friends and famliy. Borrow things for months without returning them, stealing from us but noww I do think it was you. ugh getting heartburn I will continue this latter when I am not so mad. and maaybe explain what brought up this post.

Super busy weekend

This past weekend we were SO SUPER BUSY! I can't even begin to tell you. On Friday Kaitlyn had school and Greg's mom and dad came up for her birthday. We went to the natural history museum and then took his parents out to dinner for their anniversary . Greg and dad went to the haunted chicken house and mom and I took the kids to see Cloudy with a chance of meatballs ( it was good by the way). Saturday morning we got up and went and to Kaitlyn's soccer pictures made. We then went and picked up the soccer trophies. We drove out to Harpersville to go to Old Baker's Farm and the cotton picking festival ( fabulous). We got back in time to clean up the kids and take them to Kaitlyn's birthday party at the Bouncey house ( party central). We went back to the hotel with mom and dad to watch the gator game because I did not get the house clean enough to let them come over. And Miss Kaitlyn stayed with them that night. Greg got up early and went and got her nad breakfast, let me sleep in ( got to love that man). When i got up I ate washed her uniform for football, got her dressed and off Kaitlyn and daddy went to football. Then we had her soccer party. Then we came home played soccer and carved pumpkins. TOld ya we were busy. BEST WEEKEND EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

eh......

I haven't posted in a while, been depressed and not wanting to do anything, EVER, but trying to force myself. Keeping kids busy , busy busy which means mommy is busy, busy, busy. Kaitlyn plays soccer 3 days a week right now but its only for 3 more weeks. Then this Sunday our little missy tough girl starts flag football. I am excited. Greg couldn't care less. She has no idea what is going on but hey at least she has something to do. She goes to church mission friends on Wednesday nights and LOVES it always has and now Brayden goes too. He cried a little the first two weeks now it's all bye mommy GO.WHatever loser. LOL.We are going down to FLorida next month and we are going to DIsney with Kaitlyn for her birthday, don't want to go don't want to spend money , but , you know my honey he is determined.I am just all around discusted with money or the lack there of. I am sick of not being able to write a check for a bill when said bill comes in. Ugh.

Today

We got up and went to church today. Singing was nice. Children's church was good for kKaitlyn but I don't know kinda felt lost. The sermon was about letting the devil in. I know I fight him being in my life everyday. I don't know felt weird to be bcak. Maybe a different church, with a preacher I feel more comortable with? You got me.

Gays and lesbians

April entry from last year on my myspace

I got a fowarded email that infuriated me today.It was from someone I have known most of my life. Someone who knows me better than most. It was about a gay man who had gotten beaten in her local bar. The part that made me furious, you may ask ( besides the beating?)? In the end of the email she typed " Funniest sh*t I ever read fu*ker deserved worse!" I almost dropped dead. How dare she? Has she forgotten that my uncle who is the family member I am closest to is not only gay but a gay rights activist? That I have marched in GLAAD parades? Or that in high school I beonged to GLAAD? ANy the friends of gay rights club? I think she has lost her mind . So I call her and asked what the hell was her problem . She said some of the most terrible things to me about gay and lesbians.How could I be friends with someone for over 20 years and never know her? She even went so far as to say that my uncle deserves the cance rhe is suffering with right now. Nevwer in my life has something more crushing been said to me, She said that even if he survives he he will go straight to hell with the rest of the deviants. My heart broke for her stupidty. How dare she? She knows nothing of his life or the life of any other gay person. This is not a life he chose nor did any otherr gay pperson. They were born that way. MAde by God. How dare you argue with his perfection. And do not quote the bible to me my friend . Judge not or yest ye be judges ring a bell to you? And lets not forget the bible was written by a king over 3000 years after ouyr saviour gave his life to save our souls so how much is his teachings and how much is what Constintine wanted ? I support every gay and lesbian person out there. They are Gods childrena and wonderful gifts to this world. I can not wait for the day that this simple minded country willl give them the same rights afforded to the rest of us. Being married to the person you love, being on each others medical insurnace, being able to visit the poperson you love if they are sick and in the hospital. Being looked down on for their lifestyle , not hte chopisces that they make that are bad. This person is no longer my friend nor that of any one else who I know who knows her if I can help it . She is ugly in the heart and has hatred for what she doesn't understand and that can not be tolerated in my book. I am mad and hurt and I just don't understand how anyone can hated millions of people because of how they were born? They desrve respect and love, and support. To alll thoose who read this who are gay I suport you in every dession you make and every thought you have. I stand proud to know you and proud of what you do.You are wonderful and brave . You should be able to get married or not or do whatever you please without anyone looking at you poorly , and on that day I will be proud untill then it is something I will pray for.

My rambaling fury is over now , but I dn't fell better I am still mad but I got it off my chest

Open letter to my mother

From my birthday last year posted on my myspace:




Why do you blame me for everything that has gone wrong in your life? Why is it that I am not good enough for you? I am a good wife and mother. I love my children, and my wonderful husband. My life is better than I ever dreamed of, but then there is you. There is always you in the back of my mind eating away at my happiness. A mother is supposed to protect her children, love them nurture them, teach them. But you stopped doing tht long before I left your home. I am old enough to remember the good times, the happy times, where Glenn and Kimmie are not. i remeber when youi where a good mother, but I don't know what happened to you, when the mother gene, shut off, but it did. I helped raise Kim and Glenn, because you where never there , for a long time, always at Bingo or with Julie and peggy with out us or at least without me. Cooking at peggys all time but not bringing me home food or smaller portions so you and Glenn could have seconds, but at least you fed me( sometimes). Giving Glenn any and everything he wanted and Kimmie to and me nothing. When I turned 18 you turned me into an addict, in bingo. I loved to play plus there was alweays your attention there. You beat me so severly , I left school out of fear of getting taken awy, stupid i know but I was young. i was more fearful of being taken to a foster home, then once I was old enough geting arrested for what the house was like. i have blammed my self for years for everything, i have been in such a dark whole that i have been trying to claw my way out for an eternity, but have gotten no where. Why don't you love me ? my beautiful babies? it is not fair to them to not know their grandma like i was fourtuniate enought o have known mine. But no more. I have to move on from you. I have to be bigger and better than you you are no more to me, because i have to be whole again and as long as i hold on to the hope of you being what I want what i need i t will never happen so i sya this now, good bye mother.

Fighting

this entry is taken from my myspace from lasty August just thought I add it here



I am so tired of fighting. I know we have our problems and things are not as they should be but I am losing it.He speaks to me as his father does and it is eating me up inside. His father is a wonderful man, except to me he treats me well most of the time but sometimes the tone of his voice or the little comments he makes breaeks my heart and Greg sits idlely by and does nothing. ALways has, always will. GReg speaks to me as if he thinks I am a bad mom he makes me feel worthless. I am a shell of myself and not sure how much longer before I shatter. Why can't I be good enough? I try dso hard everyda, every hour, every minute , and every every single second but none of it is good enough. Then when I try talking to him about it he wigs out and yells and says oh hear we go again and whatever jenn whatever. So I won't even tell him anymore. I will jsut keep it all bottled up because that is all I can do. It's alll he'll let me do. He is very controlling lately. everything has to be his way. There is no other way. What is going on? I love him so much but he has not been himself in so long,I am scared I don't know what to do.I am crying so much I can barely see the keyboard to type. I want him to love me again no matter what no make me feel so terrible all the time. I am trying, but I need help. He gets mad when the house isn't clean but he yells at the kids when I ask him to watch them so I stop and it never gets done. Then I try to take the kids places when he sleeping and he gets mad because I used gas I bought lucnh or whatever floats his boat that day or what did not get done in the house while i should have been home. I do not know how much more of this I can take....

Thinking about my mom a lot. Don't know why . Maybe it's all the Gosselin crap. yes when I started a second blog I said no mention of them here but its not what I mean. Kate is domineering awful wench and rumored to be physically abusive and we all know how bad things were with my mom. Kate reminds me a lot of her. She has her hand out to the world expecting free stuff. Just like my mom. She's abusive and mean , hmm again just like my mom. And I am turning into them both. I never clean( well that's actually getting a lot better but lets move on) , I can ignore my kids when I am not in the mood. I don't mean in the way of not feeding or something of that nature , but when I am busy or not in a big mommy mood, I can hear myself say go away, go play, just like my mom just like Kate. I am working on my faults which is something neither one of them can admit they have. I still wonder have I done as much damage to Kaitlyn and Brayden as mommy did to us or as time will tell Kate has done to her babies? Don't know. I just need to work to be better. Need to do dishes and laundry, already better then my mother.

Little old lady in court......

Defence Attorney:
Will you please state your age?

Little Old Lady:
I am 86 years old.

Defence Attorney:
Will you tell us, in your own Words,
What happened the night of April 1st?

Little Old Lady:
There I was, sitting there in my swing on my front Porch on a warm spring evening, when a young man comes creeping up on the Porch and sat down beside me.

Defence Attorney:
Did you know him?

Little Old Lady:
No, but he sure was friendly.

Defence Attorney:
What happened after he sat down?

Little Old Lady:
He started to rub my thigh.

Defence Attorney:
Did you stop him?

Little Old Lady:
No, I didn't stop him.

Defence Attorney:
Why not?

Little Old Lady:
It felt good.
Nobody had done that since my Albert died some 30 years ago.

Defence Attorney:
What happened next?

Little Old Lady:
He began to rub my breasts.

Defence Attorney:
Did you stop him then?

Little Old Lady:
No, I did not stop him.

Defence Attorney:
Why not?

Little Old Lady:
His rubbing made me feel all alive and excited.
I haven't felt that good in years!

Defence Attorney:
What happened next?

Little Old Lady:
Well, by then, I was feeling really 'spicy' that I just laid down and told him
'Take me, young man. Take me!'

Defence Attorney:
Did he take you?

Little Old Lady:
Hell, no! He just yelled,
'April Fool!'
And that's when I shot him, the little bastard!!!!

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April Fool

Today is April's fool. I want to play ao good joke on Greg except he would be pissed. Right now Brayden is napping. Kaitlyn is playing in the yard .Life is good. i need to get up off my ass and do things, its just hard to make myself. Thuis blog ( this is the first entry) will be all about my life what I am feeling when I am feeling itt. I may post 10 times a day or not for months we will see.